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Hello darlings,

After 7 hectic weeks I finally have time to post a reply here.
First of all a big thanks to Anna for making this beautiful wallpaper for me.
It is based on my fic chosen and it fits very well. Love it very much sweetie!

Second; ringcon just 2 more weeks to go, weeeeeeeeee!!!!
Of course the nasty Elijah cancelled 3 weeks ago (after having been on the list for almost a year). Safe to say there is little love left. However Sean Astin and Miranda Otto are suposed to come, so lets hope they won't cancel at the last moment either.

Third uni; insane and giving me loads and loads of stress. I am in panic attack land again (oh joy) and I am going to see my doctor tomorow. It would be nice if she could give me something relaxing, so that I don't feel as if I am about to get a heartattack any moment now. I handed in one essay and did one exam. Two more essays to go. Only good thing is that one course is finished so I will have a bit more spare time

Fourth; watching episodes of the dead zone now and I love it. It is good show and I wish I would have discovered it sooner.

Fifth; I miss you al insanely!!!! Please drop me a note to tell me how you are doing. I have thought loads about you and hopefully I will have some time now to actualloy be present again.

Well thsi is it!

Lots of love
Dana

Dear Amber,

All the way from here I am wishing you a great great birthday!! 
It is but a short time that I know you but in that time we have grown so close and I am glad we did.
You are a great, strong, sweet and trustworthy friend and I love you dearly.
Have a great birthday with everything you sih for and be sure to lok out for my spirit on your party!
Lots of love
Dana

Amber's gift !!

The tittle says it all I think.
The weather here has been freakishly hot lately and the people are getting crankier with the day.
We are a country that certainly isn't build for these temperatures. I can only hope that it will not last to long anymore.

I realise that I have updated very little lately bit not much is happening in my life. As for the things that are happening...most of it is known and whining all the time is not something I feel like doing. I am going on vacation this saturday but since I am staying in Holland....and have internet acces, most of you will hardly notice I am staying somewhere else.
I don't have any big plans. I just hope I can relax a bit and get rid of the stress that is wreaking havoc on my body.

Lots of luck, strenght and love to all my sweet friends out there. You are in my mind and heart!

Another test result:

The Counselor
Your type is best summed up by the word "counselor", which belongs to the larger group of idealists. Only 2% of the population share your type. You are so empathic that you often know what others need before they know themselves. You are a complex person who can deal with complicated issues and people, almost prefer to, as you love problem solving. You can be something of an idealist or perfectionist, and should try to take yourself a little less seriously.<BR>You are a supportive and insightful romantic partner, encouraging your mate to have dreams and work hard to make those dreams come true. Because you are so creative, you have a wealth of ideas to help them toward those goals. You need harmony so much that you are driven to resolve conflict quickly, as long as the terms don't violate your ethics. You feel the most appreciated when your partner admires your creativity, trusts your inspirations, and respects your values. It is also vitally important that your partner be open and emotionally available - in other words, that they be willing to share themselves completely.

Link: http://www.okcupid.com/tests/take?testid=16567335035599898597

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee I am freeeeee!!!
No more stupid uni for a loong long time. Just one more essay to write but besides that, I am freeeee!!!
Oh and I am going to enjoy it. Yesterday I did nothing at all. And with that I mean nothing. Just hanging on the couch watching stupid cartoons and surfing over the internet. It was glorious. I don't want to do this every day but I really needed to have a day with absolutly nothing to do.
I will be a good girl today and start writing on lofters, chosen and a secret songfic challenge *grins* I feel quite inspired and I have spome nice surprises up my sleeve, boehahahaha

*big hug for all my girls* 
I hope you are all fine. Good luck to everyone who is still struggling at school, my thoughts are with you. And for those of you who are free; enjoy!!!


And because I am in the mood for something silly, something I snagged from drpeprfan

TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name: Dana
Birthday: April 7, 1979
Birthplace: Alphen aan den Rijn 
Current Location: Desk in my bedroom 
Eye Color: Green
Hair Color: Own haircolour: darkblond. Current haircolour: red 
Height: 1.66
Right Handed or Left Handed: Right handed
Your Heritage: Just dutch...though I get a lot of are you english or french *scratches head* and some people in Italy thought I was italian. How weird.
The Shoes You Wore Today: Army boots
Your Weakness: Fear of failure which leads to procrastionation, pessimisme, to insecure, afraid to be abandoned.
Your Fears: Spiders and for the rest see above.
Your Perfect Pizza: with tuna or spinach
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: passing all my courses at uni, not being such a bitch, overcome my own weaknesses
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: right and anyways
Thoughts First Waking Up: what in the hell...what a weird dream (but then in dutch of course *grins*)
Your Best Physical Feature: Hair or eyes
Your Bedtime: normally around 10.30 
Your Most Missed Memory: I am not sure I get this...if I miss it how can I think about it????
MacDonalds or Burger King: neither......I like healthy food
Single or Group Dates: none thanks very much
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Lipton ice
Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate and vanilla
Cappuccino or Coffee: Cappucccino
Do you Smoke: occasionally
Do you Swear: I am afraid I do yes 
Do you Sing: only when I am alone...no need to give other people hearing problems *winks*
Do you Shower Daily: Yes, no better way to start the day.
Have you Been in Love: Yes, no comment.
Do you want to go to College: I'm in college.
Do you want to get Married: nope
Do you believe in yourself: most of the times yes
Do you get Motion Sickness: very easily 
Do you think you are Attractive: nope, not at all. 
Are you a Health Freak: More and more
Do you get along with your Parents: with my mother almost always with my dad a bit less
Do you like Thunderstorms: Yes, they are pretty and the power of nature is something tha never ceases to amaze me. Ultimate beauty!
Do you play an Instrument: no, I once did but I stopped a long long time ago.
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: yes but not much
In the past month have you Smoked: yes, stresssss
In the past month have you been on Drugs: never
In the past month have you gone on a Date: certainly not
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: yes.
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: no idea what it is...you cannot by it here.
In the past month have you eaten Sushi: brrrrr, no fish fan, certainly not raw fish.
In the past month have you been on Stage: no, rather work behind the scenes
In the past month have you been Dumped: no
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: Yeah, right in this country......good way to get sick here.
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: no
Ever been Drunk: No, not really
Ever been called a Tease: I tease a lot of people but if it is meant sexual then not
Ever been Beaten up: yes
Ever Shoplifted: No, I am to much of a coward to even try besides I don't care that much about materialistic things.
How do you want to Die: when it happens, quickly
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: When I am grown up??? I pretty much I hope I am grown up. But I would like to work for a publishing company and be a writer
What country would you most like to Visit: New Zealand.
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color: doesn't matter much
Favourite Hair Color: brown and black
Short or Long Hair: some guys are great with long hair but overall I prefer short. 
Height: not to tall....I am pretty short myself
Weight: Doesn't matter that much though I am not very attracted to someone who is very much overweight
Best Clothing Style: punk, alto and gothic (haha what a  big surprise)
Number of Drugs I have taken: Never used drugs 
Number of CDs I own: uuuuh no idea, 50 or so
Number of Piercings: Two in each ear 
Number of Tattoos: One, a flame on my upper right arm 
Number of things in my Past I Regret: Several things, best not to dwell on it to much and just make sure it doesn't happen again.

Just a quick note from me; my dad is reinstalling the internet tomorow.
According to him it will be easy and won't take long. However things usually never turn out that way with internet connections so if I am not around the coming days...you know that it wasn't as simple as my dad said which means that I have no internet.

As for something happier; I am going to meet Elijah in november *beams* It is at a convention in Germany called ringcon. And you can bet that I am looking forward to it very much!!

I also had a meeting with my therapist today and we decided that the end of this therapy is coming. Just 2 more meetings (the last one will be in november) and then therapy is over. The end of 9 years of therapy! I feel a bit weird over it. I mean it is a good sign obviously but it is just simply that you don't spend 9 years of talking to someone about everything that concerns you, about very private things, without forming a band. Saying goodbye will be pretty hard that is for sure. I really feel a bit sad now. But I wasn't feeling to great anyway so *shrugs*

Anyways I hope everyone is feeling all right and that life is treating you nicely. Drop me a note I would love to hear how everyone is doing!!

And just a few shout-outs;
Amber and Peiyu; thanks so much for your great gifts. I absolutly adore them. Love you girls!!
Anna; your email helped me so much...meant the world to me. Love you!

I just wanted to say THANKS to all my sweet friends out there who thought about me,
send me (e)cards, emails, presents (I am wearing the earrings Anna *beams*)textmessages, livejournal shout outs and all those things.
It made me feel so incredibly loved and it truly touched my heart. I feel warm inside, happy and teary eyed because so many people cared. I am not sure what I did to deserve this but you all mean the world to me.

Anna, Amber, Blondie, Petra, Janet, Diane, Donna, Melissa (and everyone else I am forgetting...which I hope I didn't) you are the best! Love you loads and loads!

Note to self; remember this when you feel alone, unhappy, insecure and unloved. Cause I am truly blessed with friends like this